Falling Down and Getting Back Up

Remember that old commercial where the elderly woman is lying on the floor and says, "Help! I've fallen and can't get up!" ? Her cries would have fallen on deaf ears, had she not had her handy device that instantly communicated with her rescuers who would come to her house and help her get back up.

Well, I've felt like that lady without the device for some months now. It's been a long while since I've posted on this blog. I've been travelling, busy with my day job and quite frankly, not paying too much attention to my body, except for the negative stuff. I haven't done a support group in months and that made me feel guilty, not to mention that I had allowed myself to fall into some old habits again, which then brought up emotions of guilt and condemnation for myself.

Intellectually, I know that I shouldn't be so hard on myself. Emotionally, I did it anyway. And the possible embarrassment from reactions from anyone who reads my blog, not to mention the people I've told that this method would work--just made me feel worse. Here I am, over a year later since I started on this quest and not making progress on feeling thin and being thin. That made me really mad and disgusted with myself. I felt like a failure, very frustrated, embarrassed that I hadn't succeeded yet and generally terrible in my own body.

I tried to hide it and pretend I wasn't feeling that way, but the truth is I was only lying to myself. I know that these feelings don't serve me well and my desire to be happy and healthy. I also know that I'm not alone in feeling this way. So I decided to blog about it so that anyone out there knows that they are not alone and that there are resources out there who can assist us.

If there is one thing that is a positive aspect of my personality it's my persistence and optimism. While I haven't been very optimistic in my body intentions in the past months, I am now. Now is all that I have, really, so why go on and on about the past few months and put myself down? I'll just make myself feel bad. Somehow, I do find a way back to seeing the positive about this situation, so my positive is that I'm now here, ready to begin again. And all that matters is now and moving forward. I can't change the past but I can choose to create a new path for myself from this moment on.

What are the positives? Well, first of all, I have a body that still works rather well. I am healthy with no major health issues, able to get up and walk everyday, enjoying the abundant resources I'm blessed with that nourish and feed my body. That is something to celebrate!

Secondly, I didn't forget about the beauty of EFT and how I can use that on these emotions that have been part of my experience these past few months. For reasons I'm sure I'll discover when I use EFT, I have been avoiding using it on my body issues for several months. I know that EFT has served me well in many areas of my life so I have no doubt that I can tap away on these issues and release them. That is not only positive, but very exciting indeed!

Third, Marna has been so supportive and I do so appreciate her support! It's great to have her and the community at ThinWithinU who understand the mind-set that those with issues with their weight often have. I look forward to getting a lot of support there again.

Fourth, I have found some amazing people in my law of attraction networking and really intend to get additional support there, too. My newest favorite coach is Jeannette Maw, who has a wonderful Ezine called "Get What You Want" and her "Good Vibe Blog," as well as a new membership site called Good Vibe University, which I joined right away. The energy there is uplifting so I'm intending to "tap" into that and bring it to my body image work both personally and more publicly here and on the ThinWithinU membership site as well.

Finally, I guess I can say that I've gotten back up! And it's all so good with all of these people in my corner. I'll be easier on myself and my busy life by doing monthly calls on the ThinWithinU site this year. I hope to begin very soon and look forward to being thinner in 2010. I hope you'll join me, too!